Taking my own advice

Have you ever noticed that it's incredibly hard to take your own advice? Ok, take me for instance. I have predicted my friends relationships, almost down to the day of what will happen, but my relationships? I might as well be senseless because I never can do what I've told everyone else. This is true in all things, not just relationships.

I pride myself on always being able to think logically and see every point of view. I can understand where people are coming from, and how they got to that conclusion, regardless of my personal views and feelings. I can look at my life, at the decisions I've made and see where I went wrong, and how I ended up where I am today. Does that stop me from making the same damn mistake? Of course not!

I guess it all comes down to being human. We all, on the barest of levels, have the same emotions, same desires. We all want to survive the best way we know how. It's why those who have nothing have everything and those who have everything are always searching for something else. We learn from what we are given, not from what we have. If we are given nothing, then our survival instincts tell us that we need nothing to survive (please don't take this literally, we all NEED food and water...)If we have been given everything, then our survival instincts will tell us that we need everything and will therefore search out everything.

Back to my original point, it's hard to take my own advice because my instincts are trained one way. While my thoughts may know something is stupid and not logical in anyway, I have trained my instincts, or jerk reactions, etc. to do differently, and so in the end I will do differently, because I haven't trained myself any other way.

This theory applies to everything from repeat abuse victims to people addicted to coffee. If you've never known anything different, how are you to know anything different? It's kinda like the old hypothetical situation, if every one had three legs, six arms and four eyes then some one with two arms, legs and eyes would be weird.

Wow...I've gotten off on some random train of thought here, so I think I'll give it a rest for tonight anyways. Being smart all the time hurts my brain :)