Being Single

Ok. I know a lot of my post are about boys, relationships and that fact that I'm pathetically single. (Although, update I am no longer the cat lady :D) But here's the deal. I'm at the point in my life where my friends start to couple off and start getting serious. This isn't high school dating where you're in love one moment and out of it the next. We're talking real world, let's get married and have kids. In fact almost half my friends are either in a relation ship that is heading down the isle, they have kids or some combination of the two. It happens. You hit twenty and things start to get serious.

Which I find kind of funny. Because this is our twenties. We are suppose to be reckless, stupid and impulsive. This is the time in our life when we're are a suppose to figure out life one mistake at a time. Yet all I see are partiers, people who you would never think would settle getting married and planning for the future.

I want it.

I know up above I said that that we are suppose to be free and easy now but I want it! I want to settle. I'm a domestic at heart and I want the husband, the picket fence and the 2.5 kids. All of it. The more it evades me the more I want it.

I was seriously born in the wrong decade. I should have been a 50's housewife. Yet I find myself single. Why? Because I want to settle down. It seems like the key to settling down is to NOT want it. Not wanting it appears to be the way to get it. Guys get scared of commitment upfront. They want the fun girl who is happy go lucky. Not the committed down to earth girl. When guys are single they are not out looking for who they are going to marry but rather who they want to have fun with. Then later the decided who they are going to settle down with. It's all very complicated in a simple kind of way.